13th May 2007

I was not exited about the Tokyo Trip at all. Friends were all so happy for me and they were more exited and more looking forward then me. I am sad. It's my birthday today, and i'm not happy. 6849 was upset we don't get to celebrate my first birthday together, and i am upset too. Last night 6849 came to pick me up from work, we went back home together and when i got out from shower, he was standing there with my favourite black forest cake, with candles lighted.. I felt my tears, i thought he was angry with me.. We sat together, just two of us, having cakes and some wines.. it was so simple yet it was so sweet.. He held me and, repeating, telling me to be careful and have fun in Tokyo.. hmm.. i felt more guilty now.. Then, i found my hidden present!! 6849 bought me a nice leather pen, in dark brown shade, i love it! I felt i'm so lucky to have him.. Bording the plane, 6849 called me, he's on his way back to Penang. We have a small chat, and i'm off to Tokyo Narita, for a nine days holiday!

26th August 2007

It's been so long............Things are moving so fast, couldn't believe it myself sometimes.. reading back my diaries, i felt i growed. I closed mt eyes trying to remember what was on my mind when i was writing the diary on 17th November 2006, and i could think of nothing.. I laugh from the bottom of my heart for being so childish and naive.. that time i was so bothered by 9007, as though i would die. And today, i finaly realised what is a real HURTING. That pain of 9007 is nothing, compared to what had happend to me in June 2007. I will never forget......

4th December 2006

I have tried several times to log on to Undercover's website. It is still under construction. It's written there "email us for more info", i did. Three days ago. Still nil respond from them. I need their address in Taipei... I wanna get that piece of T-shirt, 6849 loves it.

11th May 2004 Tuesday

Time flies, Tuesday already. Not a good start for my day, having problem to make my foundation looks natural.. hell... meeting lambda, left the house together with maine, reached far east on time. He's not there yet, walk around alone while waiting. Finally he turned up. Bought a watch for myself, then we went lunch, hungry we both, then we went work together. Report work on time, fabian was there already, looking at me with his teddy bear smile. Talk to him a while, and he's friend came join him. Round 8 plus, surprised... edmund turn up, still looks good. So sweet him, came all the way to pass me my birthday present, coz he's leaving back to Ipoh urgent, his grandpa passed away... I unwrapped my present after he left, touching.... he bought me a set of SKll essential tool... so caring him, he remembers!! Fabian paid his check n left, he said he'll be here tomorrow night. Back home done shower, my mobile beeped. Sms from Mr Dewey, ask me where have i been. 9007 sms me round 4pm this evening, wrote " huai dan huey lai le, wo hou xiang ni ". Didn't reply. 12 plus, i sms him " wan an xiao huai dan, muacksss... ", no reply from him, probably sleeping with some chics, hell, doesn't borders me. Tomorrow is gonna be a good day, i hope.

10th May 2004 Monday

Today is a happy day... got up as usual, fabian called early in the morning told me he's going to fixed some business at the phillipe's and was offering me a lift to work. No excuse found, hell, just a lift to work!! Finished my make up, dressed up, doing my final touch-up while talking with christine at back pantry, my mobile rang, he's down stairs. Wow, nice car. Went in the car, then i realised i was so nervous. Still early, so we went for a cup of tea at Divine's bar. We sat down, me still nervous... i ordered a black tea, he's having his usual earl grey. We were talking, he did most of it, i was listening. He shared with me his story when he was in the jail, his bone marrow transplant surgery few years back, his best friend who take cares of all the disco bars in kl... he was being very friendly, those who will always be there when u needed him... went to work, business was quiet... got sms from M from China... saying he missed me, so sweet... 9007 sms me, wrote "wo hou xiang ni"... going out with lambda tomorrow, wanna buy myself a birthday present...

9th May 2004

Cool day today... face difficulty to pull my butt out of my bed... got up early a i promised a morning call to Mr Ernest, had too much to drink last night and make me to wake him up to work just before he passed off... i dozed off again, till my alarm clock buzzss.... count down four more days to my 22 birthday, scary man... time flies without u realising it... shower n went work as usual, a boring day... got to know a new friend today, he got the same name as i do, funny eh? That's how we get to know each other... He came to lobby yesterday and kept looking to my direction... then he ask aishah what's my name because he's been hearing people calling me his name.... haha... he then approached me and he passed me his name card, told me that he just got back from Australia and would like to meet more friends, and ask me to drop him a sms... new friend!!! No sms from 9007, my naughty boy... busy???

8th May 2004 Saturday

Today is a very tiring day... As what he promised, Mark King came pick me up to work. What surprised me was, Nick was sitting beside him. I don't look well, i know, due to 1. not enough sleep 2. no sms from 9007 3. thinking of i was being schedule to work in RV today 4. not enough sleep. Mark King was late for 10 minutes... Nick kept talking, till they dropped me at shang. RV was busy, we all worked like we were shooting Rush Hour lll. Finally, dinner break... i went with netx and andrea, i can hear my stomach crying for help. We had a very good dinner in the cafeteria, got a sms from 9007. He told me that he had touched down in Beijing. I didn't reply. Was giving my fulled attention to my food. Went back to work in lobby after meal, thank god everything was smooth... finally 12:30am, back home shower and now lying on my lovely bed... 9007 sms me, telling me he had reached Taiyuan... ohh.. i think i am addicted... called home and papa ask me when i am going back. Yeah, Mark King bought me a bean filled pig head pillow... haha... i love it!!!

7th May 2004 Friday

Day of surprised... i was sleeping... early in the morning and my mobile kept ringing, it showed private number... i ignored it... it stopped after the sixth missed call. I got up round 1 plus, shower and everything, just before i could finished up my last sip of coffee, my mobile rang again. It showed private number. I pick up, it was Fabian. He had got a birthday present for me, he said, and he got to leave Singapore in few hour's time, it was a last minute thing. He wanna tell me that he had some one sent my present to lobby. I thank him. I went dinner with sharon, sylvia, and netx. Saw SH. He came over to our table, to say hi to Sharon. Report work at lobby, maine told me i have a package. Went into the office, it was lying there in my in-tray. Took it out carefully, and i unwrapped it. Lying peacefully in the box, a diamond bracelet shinning... i love it!!! Fabian got back to Singapore later at night, i thank him for his present. I called mummy to tell her about it. Mark King sent me back in his new car, i showed him my very first birthday present... He said he is not as rich, but he has got a present for me, tomorrow... Nothing from 9007 today, a bit sad...

6th May 2004 Thursday

Today is a good day i guessed... came to work happily, everything was quite smooth, went dinner in cafeteria with Mark King and people from BLU, had a good laugh with them... saw J sitting with his friends, then saw my ex-bf, Mr DH, sat right behind me. Went back to lobby right after my dinner, saw 9007 sitting at table 36 with his guests... he look at me with that smile on his face... i felt i was going to passed over... okay, he called me in the afternoon telling me that he will be in shang later, for a dinner... my heart still beating fast... they didn't stay long, left for dinner in NDM... got his sms shortly, i replied but this time he took a little longer to respond... a bit disappointed... Sharon just couldn't stop asking whether i have already figured out who's that guy, she finally decided to disclose when i told her i am not going to respond to this anymore anymore. It was SH. Thanks Sharon for telling me this, now i have got to act like i don't know anything whenever i see him... and i begged her for keeping her mouth shut. Went supper with Agnes (my lovely sis) in CG, SH was there on duty, nothing happen. Was smsing with 9007, he told me that he is leaving to China on Sat morning, and flying back on Tues. I don't know y, i always smell dangerous on him... i think i am getting hooked...

5th May 2004

Today is a different day... something nice happened...i was having my dinner alone in cafeteria, one guy suddenly showed himself from behind, and sat down beside me. He then looked into my eyes, and smile... I know this guy, he is friend of Zhang, a trainee from China. I stared straight into his eyes with that "what do u want" look. He, suddenly, held out his hand, and start to introduce himself. His name is J. Then, as i was still busy with my dinner, he started telling me about his hometown, which college he from, his favourite past-time, his work... just before he moved on to his weekly schedule, i stood up, got to get back to work, and nice to meet u. Next sentence, " may i have your number? " (sound familiar girls?) Hack, gave him my number and off me go. 9007 sent me a sms today morning, i didn't reply. Here's another sms from him, right after my dinner. I decided to reply. He called me straight away. I didn't pick up. Evening time, at work, Fabian came to see me in the lobby, again... am i touched? or maybe find him annoying and just wanna get rid of him? Whatever, i gave him my mobile number. Here comes Sharon, she looks happy and she said she got something to share with me... then she told me there was a guy from CG been asking about me, i scratched my head, twice, who? i ask. She ask me to take a walk to CG and look carefully. I went down, two female staff, one Indian male staff, SH is the manager on duty... who? Don't tell me is SH, he has got a girlfriend... Sharon is being so mysterious, who's that guy? I just called mummy asking for my birthday present..

4th May 2004 Tuesday

Stopped diary for months... err.. since that day i went back to kl. Decided to start writing again coz today was a very special day for me, am off today, and have appointment with maine, ben, and christine for dinner, at Ritz Green House. It was so special because my new friend 9007 is joining us. 9007 dropped by shang last night and keep asking me out for a meal together.. well, to "delight" him and to "save" myself from having to eat with him one to one, i decided to invite him to join us for dinner tonight, without hesitate, he accepted my invitation. And yes, he turned up and there he was, with us.. the atmosphere was so awkward at first (swear i was cursing myself)... then, thank god, it turned better after he finally hooked up in a conversation with ben... i didn't know there's another surprised waiting for me... half way of dinner, one of the staff approached our table... with a birthday cake and lighted candles... Surprise!!! So touching, i really didn't expect it because my birthday is like a week more to go... i thank them for being so nice as a friend... at the same time, i wish i could have a hole deep enough for me to dig myself in... dinner over, finally, 9007 insisted to take the bill, and yes, as how a drama moves on, my friends left me with 9007, and he drove me to Mount Faber. I remember this is the second time i have been there... the last time was with another trying-to-know-me-better friend. Guys, y Mount Faber? Back to 9007. He showed me the place he stays, we went for a little walk, talk a little bit (sounds familiar?), then he send me back home. I have been trying to observe him whole night, still blank... think we should be friend first (sounds familiar?) Now lying on bed, just finished telling this story to my loyal buddy Mr. Mark King. It will be a good night tonight, sweet dreams... Zzzzz...